Tears of Sunset

Do you know beautiful of the sunset ? It's couldn't be the ugly one but always the beautiful sunset. Do you know why many people like to go beach? When you feel upset or even feel want to cry, there is always the best place you can go. I'm one of them who like to go here when I feel bad and sometimes I only want to share my happiness together with my bestie. My first feeling when I was at here is totally bad, why? I also don't know why. I feel that I'm not the one who should be here all the time. Maybe there will be someone who needed more than me. I never blame anyone for ignoring me and I never think to revenge for it, as just I hope there is always the chance for me to feel the happiness and the real friends towards me. I even can forgive 100 times but why I cannot been forgive just once? I on't know what is happening and day by day I act like everything is fine, and it's just a dream. I tell myself that no matter how bad or good that someone, forever is my bestie. I don't want money to have a friends. What I want is real friends. And yes, this is always my tears drop place I could even been. I even release 100 times my anger, and there is no one there to heard it. But there is always someone else could hear me. I never expect something and finally I'm wrong. The more I don't expect the more unexpected things happen in my life. I just don't understand why... my tears drop one by one and no one know ... but there is  always sunset know I'm crying towards it...

Good Times & Bad Times

Many broken pieces

Shattered, now apart

What can I do to mend it?

To mend by broken heart?

I walk along the beach

Leaving footprints cold and bare

How can I enjoy the sunset,

When there’s no one here to share?

There used to be a pair,

Of footprints next to mine.

But they washed away with waves

And the shifting sands of time.

All I can do now,

Is remember how things were.

The good times, not the bad times,

Which caused my heart to stir.

To live to die,

What does it matter?

While I am in this state.

I didn’t know how much I loved,

Until it was too late.

Friendships Lost !

I see your smile
I know your mind
No words need be said
I understand.
Focused on each other
We listen and we care
Laughter ripples like water
Together, we are.
Others are here, yes,
And we value them, yes,
But a special bond remains,
A line between us two.
Each friendship is special
Each is unique
And so is ours
We know.
And then time begins to roll
and rear it’s ugly head
Change begins
Now a little less than before.
Slowly, surely,
Not knowing why
Faster, stronger, without care
Our world shifts and shimmers and splits.
Shattered shards cascade down
Spurred by angry, lashing words
Contorted faces, stone deaf ears
Outside the whirlwind,
We die inside.
The scars run deep
Jagged clefts in our souls
We have suceeded in hurting
And hurt ourselves.
So you move on
And I remain
We keep on living
Turn our faces apart.
Now I glance across
At you from outside
Shaded eyes dry with tears
New friends, new life.
Laughter, smiling (clenched teeth)
The flippant toss of the head
The enclosure surrounds you
I cannot come near.
From behind my glass window
I know more than those within
I see the hurt in your eyes
I know the pain in your smile
I have been there before - I love you
Why do you pretend?
I hate to see your pain
And I cry inside
Tears deep within my soul
I cannot help you anymore.
What we had once
We can never have again.
The scars run deep,
But I still care.
You were my friend.