Tears of Sunset

Do you know beautiful of the sunset ? It's couldn't be the ugly one but always the beautiful sunset. Do you know why many people like to go beach? When you feel upset or even feel want to cry, there is always the best place you can go. I'm one of them who like to go here when I feel bad and sometimes I only want to share my happiness together with my bestie. My first feeling when I was at here is totally bad, why? I also don't know why. I feel that I'm not the one who should be here all the time. Maybe there will be someone who needed more than me. I never blame anyone for ignoring me and I never think to revenge for it, as just I hope there is always the chance for me to feel the happiness and the real friends towards me. I even can forgive 100 times but why I cannot been forgive just once? I on't know what is happening and day by day I act like everything is fine, and it's just a dream. I tell myself that no matter how bad or good that someone, forever is my bestie. I don't want money to have a friends. What I want is real friends. And yes, this is always my tears drop place I could even been. I even release 100 times my anger, and there is no one there to heard it. But there is always someone else could hear me. I never expect something and finally I'm wrong. The more I don't expect the more unexpected things happen in my life. I just don't understand why... my tears drop one by one and no one know ... but there is  always sunset know I'm crying towards it...