STRESS

I feel damn stress !! Why ?? Anyone can tell me why ? Why must I work hard for nothing ?? Why should I pay all those thing in my life ? Why money is the most important in life ?? I really feel tired for sometimes !! I really wish there is someone I can talk to and someone who I can hug too ! I really feel weak and I hate my life which full of stress !! I feel so tired ! Really tired ! How I wish my life time could just end at here and breath for the last time ! I drop my tears whole night long just to think how I can handle all this ! But seen there is my life, I should accept whole life ?? NO NO NO !! Should not be !!! I need to change my proper life !!! I should !!!!! I cant stand anymore !!! Its time to end this kind of life !!!! I dont wanna be this kind forever !!!! Oh Please ! Do help me ! I need some rest !! I need to relax my mind ! huuu ~ after release feel  bit better !! :') blog is my life ~ how i can release all my tension .

Shadow

When you are Hurting.

And all it seems to do is rain.

When your heart aches

I won't leave you in pain.

When your world is clouded over.

And you don't know who to turn to.

When all you do is cry.

Come let me help you.

When all you troubles and fears.

Seem to bring you tears.

And all you need is a shoulder.

My shoulder I will lend and dry your tears

When your world is out of control.

And your life no longer a straight line.

And the strength you can not bare.

I will give you hope that it will be fine.

When you just want to share

Your hopes and dreams to be. 

Or the guy that moved in next door.

You can trust me. 

For I am here for you cause I am your shadow.

朋友！

朋友都是真心的吗？？
友情是真的吗？？
好朋友又是什么呢？
我只是把自己做的最好，然道还不够好吗？？
想要有一个真正的好朋友也那么难吗？？
每天都哈哈的笑不代表我是真的很开心丫！
我痛了，我哭了，我累了。。有谁会懂我的心呢？？ 
再也不想管了！我自想要好好的一个永远的好朋友！
你们永远都是我的好朋友，再多的误会我也不管了，我自在乎我的友情！
你们不喜欢我也没关系，因为你们是我最要好的朋友了！
我喜欢看你们开开心心的，而不是每天都在吵架！

: 永远的好朋友！ 

: Always my best friends. No matter how much you guys hate me, but I only can say I will forever keep my promise that you all are always My Best Friends ! 

For My Sister

Even though we are miles apart 
It's like your still here next to me.
Because I keep you in my heart.
When you feel down look for me in your dream 
We have been there for each other our whole lives.
No one can ever take your place.
Your shoulder is what I have used for my cries. 
You have made me laugh when I had a frown on my face.
We are sisters and friends.
I love you my sister till the end.
I could not imagine my life without you
You are my rock.
I can't wait to see you when you come near me all new.
I hope you never have to leave me again.
Just always remember I love You my sister.
And I will be there till the end.
So look for me in your dreams.
When you need a friend 
Or you just want to scream. 

Tear Drop

Of it goes again

Across the wrinkle path

Soothing the heart

Struck by an aftermath

Cleansing my soul

Strengthening my will

Driving my further

As life becomes still

Teaching me a lesson

Same one each time -

" All the matters, fade

Life still remains prime "

Go ahead,  Go ahead

Dear drop of tears

Thank You, for what you do

For making my conscience clear ....

Ladies Night

Last night was my 1st time joining friends to Balcony just to see my sister and friends walk-show. Wow, it's really amazing last night. The music is too ROCK and a lots of GIRLS dance on the stage, I never believe that it could be the Great night. After the walk-show, I'm staying more longer and I meet some of my friends. Yeah, after that I'm sitting near the Juice Bar having my Vodka and Red Wine. It's totally " WOW " . A little drop of the wine make me feel so relax and out of stress. Well, no one ever willing to hear for my sadness and story but one thing can help me out from that mystery dream that is having a cup of wine, sitting there and drinks a little by little. It's make me feel much better and I guess it was the best way.  After finish up my drinks and I never expect I could drinks beer at the last. I feel damn dizzy because I drink too much and I'm still awake between that my friends were there accompany me until I feel much better. A cup of wine make me wake up and release a lots of stress. I hope to join them again and I hope my friends could also feel like how I feel now. Its amazing and It's ROCK ! I like it and it's the best place ever. Although I don't like the cigarette smoke, but I still can ignored it by the way. It's will be my 1st fun night sitting there and have a wine bit by bit. Great one !!  

I'm back

Hey hey hey .. long time no updated my blog. Well , today was not my day . I feel so wrong and disturbed ! Everything I do couldn't be alright. Oh gosh, what's happening ?? Any problem to me ?? Or i just not enough sleep ?? While today I'm having maggie for my lunch what a boring day to be ?? I'm looking for my coming sunday .. oh hope it will faster come . I'm tired of waiting. So until here my blog, nothing to post . bye bye ... xD

I'm the GIRL

I'm the girl who prefer one Rose instead of a dozen. 

I'm the girl who rather stay in on a Friday night than go wild party with random strangers. 

I'm the girl who wouldn't make you wait on her hand and foot, but would do anything to make you Happy.

I'm the girl who would enjoy having a Movie night rather than going to fancy restaurant. 

I'm the girl who would rather Stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and get drunk. 

I'm the girl who wont make you hold her bags, but would rather hold your Hand instead. 

I'm the girl who will Love you more than anyone can possibly dream of.

I'm the girl who would give the world to see you Smile.

Lester Farewell Party

Last night I work for extra hours (OT) until 10 pm because not enough workers. Just because need to save money, Ember and Me buy 2 cups of Maggie as our Dinner. Not longer, the phone is ringing, and one of our worker resign because He needs to go New Zealand for his further studies. He celebrating his FAREWELL PARTY at MING CAFE last night. Ember and Me promise to go after working. 10 pm we were closed, we straight away go for the farewell party. When we arrived, there is loads of our GYM members and some our friends. One things make me forever unforgetable was one of our friends JENNY drink one cup of vomit beer. Just to imagine Lester had just vomit it and Jenny drink it. WOW, it's really AMAZING ! It's the violence games i ever seen. I never played this kind of games when celebrating those YUCKS games ever. Yet I like the Vodka taste. It's nice. I wish to taste all of the beer .

You Hurt Me!

I thought there us always a chance for me to look after you, but to you I'm just only ordinary girl . I use to care much for you, but you act like you never know all about this. Hard for you to chat with me or because I'm not malay and iban? Or because I'm chinese and you more prefer to those friends?? And YES I just want to chat with you only. Hard?? Why must you treat chinese people like shit and yet you treating those more friendly ?? You always people racist, but how bout you ?? Not racist ?? Please la, think for this question, don't just reject people just because of RACIST !! T.T

I just hope you will try to understand me and I use to be your friends too not for the outsider stranger..

14th February- 2012

: EMO?? Hmm. What a bored day to be? Everyday stay at shop and do nothing. When I'm in good mood, no people wanna reply my message. Haiz. I really hope I'm always free and can everyday out. but what the use? I need to work work work. Everyday working. Stress again. Everything goes wrong whole day. I dont know what should I do and What I'm going to do. It's doesn't mean I'm not happy when hang out, just sometimes too rush. I wish I can always stay at home no need to work, when hang out also no need to rush. What to do? Need money. No money how to hang out? Working so hard just because of money but then? No people want to out. I was like Happy when I know today hang out for a dinner, but what de use? No people want to dinner with me. My mum all have dinner left me alone. I plan everything but then? All go wrong. Hard to communicate to me right. Hmm, this is how I use to accept?? Sitting alone listening to music make my tears drop one by one .... ~ 

Friends

Little Pretty Girls. Lost my Old Blog Account. Re-do ^^

: Pretty ?? Haha, one of my friends which look thin, pretty and clever.

: hoho~ The most fierce girl.. hahaha, my primary and classmates friends. Look very quiet and helpful.

 : This girl very weak and mostly very holy. Never have bad words in her mind. Hardworking and Nice ~

: Haha, leng luii ~~ this little girl ne, funny and cute. When we bad mood she are one of them to cheer us up. Talkative and good in counting ..

: look at this girl? Look stil young but she going to leave us. She is pretty, clever and good in manner.

: Not to forget this girl, she is one of our friends and she kinda friendly just I more like to disturb her for sometimes. She use to transfer school and now she's not with us.

All of them are my friends from studying until now. Hard to introduce because they all are almost same. Oh girls, Just to wish you all Happy Valentine's  Day ! No matter what, always in my friends list, and sorry for my rudeness or something i've done to hurt you guys. If only i act too over, let me know but don't ignore me as well. Yet, I know some of you will mad at me now but it's ok. I wait for the forgiveness.

Thanks Sis ~

Jie, sorry, I know you care, but you know me right, I'm hot-temper hard to communicate too. But, I guess I'm hurting you deeply this time. There is no point for me to angry last night, but I feel like I'm far apart. I don't even can accept myself and I never forgive myself too. You are right, I'm selfish. I learnt to be selfish is the key to survive in realistic world although you don't want it because there is no more choice. YES, I'm happy when I receive the Teddy Bear from you, but when I hug it, my tears dropping down, why? No one ever treat me like this before. Jie, why you need to appear in my life? Why must you choose to being close even though I live in different background?? Why must you being like my Brother?? T.T

My Best Sister's

: The day we hang out for PIZZAHUTS ~ how cool is that ?? Although some of us might not happy but we finally can take one photo as sweet memories. <3

Lonely

: Officially just look like Me when I feel DOWN ~

: Down feeling~ should I drop my tears too ??

Last Night !

I couldn't believe that something happen with so sudden. Why am I so serious with my life? Even that someone also cannot changes me? Yes, you are right, I'm selfish. I think for myself not for everyone, but do you ever say I'm not selfish when I start to care for everyone, care for people, help people and they don't even accept me as a friends? No. You never know it. Just don't know my life, and you don't even can understand me. Not only you, include all my friends. This is what you let me know last night? We come from different family and you don't know how I live for. Please, do understand me. I try my very best to stay cheerful. Dropping my tears when I start to know how I use to be at here now. What the use of being good to others? What the use of treating people as gold if they only treat me as grass. Come on, I have feeling. I have a lots of feeling. I try to be strong to face all this but at last I fall down. I need to rest. I really feel giving up. I wish to not stay here and forget everything start form today onward. No more selfish, no more useless, no more old Joyce... Forever is new, and Mean ! Its time for me to stay away from all this. No more ordinary Me any more !

That's Me

Sister's

She is your mirror, 

shining back at you with a world of possibilities.  

She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. 

 She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark.  She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink.  Some days, she's the reason you wish you were an only child. 

Life ~

Life is f0r living,i live mine f0r u.

Love is f0r giving, i give mine t0 u.

Hearts are f0r beating, mine beats f0r u.

Dreams are full 0f meaning, mine are full 0f u . ♥ 

Me ~

I'm here because of me, myself which cannot share out my sadness story to everyone who doesn't willing to hear for me. So, I have create a blog which can let me write out what is on my mind. I remember, someone ever told me that, no matter what, I'm always here for you. But lastly, I left alone here. This make me wake up from being stupid forever and that someone who make me strong and dare to go on. I need to thanks that someone who let me move on and that someone let me know that I still can go on without anyone because that's my life, and why not ?? I was glad to know who I am. ~