Last Night !

I couldn't believe that something happen with so sudden. Why am I so serious with my life? Even that someone also cannot changes me? Yes, you are right, I'm selfish. I think for myself not for everyone, but do you ever say I'm not selfish when I start to care for everyone, care for people, help people and they don't even accept me as a friends? No. You never know it. Just don't know my life, and you don't even can understand me. Not only you, include all my friends. This is what you let me know last night? We come from different family and you don't know how I live for. Please, do understand me. I try my very best to stay cheerful. Dropping my tears when I start to know how I use to be at here now. What the use of being good to others? What the use of treating people as gold if they only treat me as grass. Come on, I have feeling. I have a lots of feeling. I try to be strong to face all this but at last I fall down. I need to rest. I really feel giving up. I wish to not stay here and forget everything start form today onward. No more selfish, no more useless, no more old Joyce... Forever is new, and Mean ! Its time for me to stay away from all this. No more ordinary Me any more !