Haiz ~

Everyday I heard of complaint there and here. Why? Just because of the rumours? I don't understand why. Well, don't say to forgive if only because of the small case. I don't need this kind of people in my life. Not enough make me suffer? Or still want to make it until I have no friends?  I really fed up! Because I hate being betrayed and yet still being double face. Girl, don't did it because you will get the same feel one day. Yes, you say I'm JELLY so? Don't you think you are? This is not double face, I just want you to understand that no everything people say is true. You can choose to not friends me but you must choose to believe yourself. You know me well, I know. But, I really hate that you remove me and ignored me without any reason. You say want to help me but at last? Remain the same. If you never betray me, you won't keep on asking me DID I EVER SAID IT BEFORE? This is insane girl. I treat you like my best friends, but what I get is enemy and rumours. How many times you want me to say that I'm TIRED with it? You remove then suddenly come back and find me again. Say what you try to forgive me and so on, can I trust it? If you really never did it, you won't remove me and you shouldn't say that you will forgive me. I know what I'm doing. I don't need rich friends in my life. Because I like my poor life and I more like to being friends with poor people because they are much more better than you all. They never talk back at me yet still helping me much more than you which know me for 4 to 5 years friends. There is no point for me to keep on explain and explain. You trust me and you will never suspect me in anyway. I do to trust you but now I guess no more. Honestly, I feel bad on how you treat me but I think back, why must I drop my tears because of you all who never appreciate me and betray me? And I know who are the right and wrong person in my life. I used to be that MEAN because I being good but you all fooling me around. I know la, I'm not as good as you all but I did to changes myself. At last, I realize that I have no point to changes myself because of you. I will just remain the old me. Don't say I never appreciate you but do ask yourself, why did you do this to me. I hold my feeling and tears and still smiling in front you just to let you know I'm strong in fake that I'm weak enough. I just hope that you give yourself a chance to understand yourself and your friends surrounding you but not to hear what people say and you do to trust it without any proven. I finally understand why poor people is crying because they lost they friends not because they poor but because they been betray by their BEST FRIENDS. I never denied that I'm sad, I just denied that I'm strong enough to face you all the time. Admit that I'm not a good person but what I know is I never let you down before. Thanks for ignored and remove me in your friend list but please be yourself. You know who you are and you know who I am. In my life, there is no enemy but I'm always here to forgive everyone and giving them a chances to make new friends with me. 

I very disappointed and I know that you are laughing me but it's okay, I really fine here and I know that one day you are going to find a better friends and not the one who like to betray each others. If I ever done anything wrong, I apologise and I don't appeal for your forgiveness. You happy and I will always happy. Before you end up our friendship I would like to say that..

 " 朋友是一辈子的 "

有时候要多了解一下自己。 当你失去了一个好朋友，你永远找不到你唯一的那个好朋友了。如何呢？你快乐吗但你失去了她？？真的不后悔吗？ 你的心真的一点都不痛吗？？

但我不知道为什么我的人生中就是那么好笑！我真的累了，我再也不想要为一个人哭了！可不可以然你们为我哭呢？