Last night is my wonderful night, why? Because I've been spend much of my times with Hui Hui and Chin Fung which 2 of them was my little ill sister. Well, I never laugh or even play happily since I graduate my Form 5. Haha, It's funny to said that we laugh from 7 pm to 1 am until midnight and we start to changed our topic to talk about personal matter, life's and even ghost story. Upset is when I started to heard about accident and it's just unexpected and it's a history of my life. We used to chit chat like how people say we are " 38婆 ". Talked non-stop and laugh whole night. WE hang out just to realize some tensions or even stress. Yeah, I totally happy and THANKS THEM to accompany me whole night. We can even talked like we don't even mentions the times is running to be late and late. Suddenly, I turn to be silent, why? I also don' know why actually. Just feel bad when I pass by and I turn to think too much. Just a few minutes because HE will never get away in my mind. HE is the one I love the most and the one who never let me been bully by people. How I wish now HE were here for me and stand beside me. Although HE's not here any more, and HE will always in my HEART. You know why I like to out with 2 of them? HAHA because our topics is always connected no matter what we talked it's always connect. Haa~ the most funny is I saw a little " Cockroach " the insect I scared the most. How I don't even imagine the insect is that disgusting in my life >< "" hahaha~ we talked we play and we laugh like the crazy girl which we quite enjoy our night. HAHA ~ I hope to have this night again in my life. It's totally relaxing. HAHA ~ But there is something which I really get HOT. People say that I'm still remain the old me which is HOT-TEMPERED but that pretty CORRECT ! And don't forget that YOU are the most CRAFTY person in my life. How I wish I can just keep silent and act like nothing ever happen between YOU and ME but the words out from your mouth is totally SHARP which can SCRATCH my heart deeply. You know how I wish I can just killed you with my HEART ?? Don't show me how GOOD you are if you just want to INVESTIGATE my life. And now you know my life is GOOD and you start to SPOILED it again and again. You know how to spell DEAD in your life ? OH ya~ forget that your ENGLISH is 100% Good den mine, Oooppssss , I don't care ! You talked like you can killed me with your word but you never know that you RAINBOW word for me is just like WIND pass by me. Ouch! You hurt yourself issit? Do you need some CREAM ? Heal your HEART which is BLEEDING now. My HEART is BROKEN. And there is someone who try to fix it for me. Although it's not totally fix nicely but she keep trying and trying. YOU? GOT ? Only have a bitchy friends around you. You know why I say Bitchy friends? Because your mouth is too DIRTY! Don't always say people is BITCH if you yourself also like a Bitch! Stalked at people back sure is your hobby but you know when you say people Bitchy you must think twice who more Bitchy. HAAA ~ This is what you like to say people. I'm not saying you but I'm just telling you in our life there is always RETRIBUTION. For me, revenge and avenge really wasted my time. But I more like God give you the punishment. ( siapa terasa nasiblah ) I just hope to see you all being good friends with me and I don't ask much but now I know why some of my friends keep on advice me not to trust too much with some of my friends surround me and YES I received the advice FINALLY. It's not too late for me to wake up start from today. If you want to learn from your mistakes, I still willing giving you the chances. no matter how many chance you want, I'm here willing to give. I cannot denied my ache but I can denied that I don't care. I cried not because I scared but I've been strong for too long. I mad not because I've done anything wrong but I've been patient for too long. I laugh not because I'm happy but showing you that I still can live without you. Girls, " Life is about being yourself. Someone only you can be. Someone only you can understand . Someone that is unlike everyone else. Someone that doesn't copy others to look the same. Someone who is extremely unique. Because you are you. Be original, be creative and be YOURSELF ". I will wait until the day you turn to be yourself. The one I can fully trust. :)
Praying for the MIRACLE !! xD
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