MARCH ! Bad !! Bad !!

21 March ?? The day we take SPM Result?? Omg !! Unbelievable !! Its the day which I've waiting for so long !! But I really feel nervous ! My 1st time feel so nervous no matter what I do, I just feel scare my result could make me disappointed deeply ! I'm killing myself if I get a bad result ! Oh ~ I'm dead to the max ! What the hell of this month? Its totally spoil my day !! Working, too much thing to do NEVRMIND ! But been scolded for not doing anything ! LOL! Make me disappointed ! Working earn money is really hard ! Well, forget about it. So, about my personal problem. I feel sad on how my family treat me, it's my secret but I feel bad for keeping so long. Haiz. Everything happen just for a reasons? Yeah! Get it easier better ! Really feel down now a days. No studying also hard, working even more worst ! How can I survive ?? I even rarely find my friends, not rarely.. is busy !! Oh SHIT ! Now even I'm standing here I'm always transparent ! I know it earlier before I step one more step forward in my life ! I dont feel ENVY but I feel FURY ! LOL!! I never believe that my life is just as RUBBISH as how everyone never know ! I getting weak day by day just because too much things I need to settle up ! Apa boleh buat kalau dh d'takdir ! Hidup hanyalh salah satu cabaran yang telah d'atur oleh Tuhan ! Sabar je lh !! Kalau hidup di dunia yang penuh dengan kekayaan, xkan ada orang yang sentiasa berjaya ! Hidup, hanya satu cabaran yang sangat mencabar untuk semua orang demi kebaikan semua manusia. X pernah ada orang memahami saya selain dari Tuhan ! Apa je lh. Hidup biar Power, otak biar Slumber xD Back to my story ! I feel sad in something which I miss it for around 7 to 8 years. This person never pay a little attention on me but when I'm trying to give up, This person try to look up for me just to drop some Hi, for asking about me. Don't you feel late on that ? When I was looking and chasing you at the back, you never stop and even see me once and now you are looking for me just to ask me for a chance? Do you ever feel the hurt before or you feel it before and feel regret ? I don't know what should I do to make my feeling back towards you. From the day you ignore me by saying I'm ugly enough and now you say I'm pretty enough?? Because of you people get me as a funny comic which making them laugh at me as a ugly girl and even stupid person. I admit I'm ugly and stupid enough but now everyone say I'm changes! I was asking them, did I ? Are you sure I'm changes? I never expect that I could just fall for you and now my heart  is belong to ice cube which no more LOVE left ! You make me cry in the moment and you are the one who broke my heart before and how do you think I still can fix it to normal? No more scars? NO ! You are wrong ! There is always your scars left in my heart ! Are you looking back for me ? I was cry in the moment which I don't believe that you coming back to me without any forcing or cursing. I try and try to let you go all this while but I just can't forget ! You are always in my mind which remain the same like how I say you are a better person in my heart, since the day you hurt me, I dont think I will heal all my pain in short time but I even dont promise to fall for you in 2nd chances.. My heart is always left the one deep scars by you.. your appearance make me worry, sad, even tears drop. Why ?? Why you did this to me?? Why ?? Can you l et me know why? What is your purpose come back to me? You just drive me crazy !! And now I'm nervous for my SPM and You ~ Give me time to settle up. I will be strong and move on ! Believe in myself ! ! OHHH YEAHHH !!!! You can do it BUIBUI ZAII !! erghh sound so wrong ~~ is JOYCE WONG !!! Hahahah ~