What happen to me ??

What is happening to me ?Why today I look so DOWN?? What actually making me more stress now a days? What course I want to take? What kind of life I want for my future? What happen to my job? What happen to my life recently? Why there is a lots of question on my mind? But why I never get the answer or even solving this kind of problem ? How can I solve it one day ??? It's totally making my life full of depresses !!!!

Can anyone let me know what is happening to me ?? Why am I look so stress now a days ? What should I do ?? T^T 
Who can tell me, which decision I should made? Give up or just remain silent?? Why ?? Everything happens just with a reason but not only reason and also for sudden ! Oh, I'm getting crazy now. Seriously I am !! T^T 

I don't want to live to waste another day UNDERNEATH the shadow of mistakes I made cause I feel like I'm breaking inside I don't want to fall and say I lost it all cause there's a part of me to hit the wall Leaving pieces of me behind and I feel like I'm breaking inside.. 

I never found out how much I tried, all of the sadness 
I kept made me blind. "She" never found out how much I cried- the rope so tight on the night that I was died in the DARKNESS ! 

In the DARKNESS I had to fall always find my place among the ashes... 
I cried.. and cried.. and It's could helped me loads... Finally, I'm blind and I still never found out how much tears I have dropped ! 

I will never know myself until I do this to my own..
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed..
I will never be anything till I break away from me..
I will break away and find myself today ... ~ 
Rain drop.. 
Tik..Tok..Tik..Tok..
It's a rain drop.. Covering my tears and stand under the rain just to feel how cold is it ! 

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you..
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you..
Everybody needs some time..on their own..
Don't you know you need some time.. ALL ALONE ! 

I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do. I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them, If I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for all what I've done and everything I do. 







FOREVER ALONE ?? AM I ?? ANYONE CAN HELP ME ?? THAT'S CALLED LIFE ~